Depression strikes again

Hello world!

Sorry I have not been able to post recently, I have really been going through some tough times, and am still currently going through them but, it will all get better.

Slowly this semester has been getting more and more stressful. I feel like my head spinning 24/7.

This weekend was a great weekend, mom came to Raleigh and spent some time with me and Tricia. We went to a Peruvian Cuisine Restaurant, which by the way, was pretty legit. On Saturday we went to a lake that can be seen by I-40. Lake Tucker? It was freaking awesome. Sometimes I love the sun.

On sunday we went to church. And it was weird. Seemed like every single testimony and all the lessons were talking straight to me, and I felt reassured that everything would turn out ok.

So, I made the decision to go to the doctor this week, to see if in any way I could feel better, even if it means being put back on anti-depressants. Unfortunately, the closest possible appointment was this wednesday. So, for now I'm just trying not to go crazy. Honestly, I don't even know if there is anything physically wrong with me, my mind just isn't working the same way it usually works. I honestly don't want to do anything but study, but know that I can't because it would drive me more crazy. These days I'm generally either anxious with so much on my mind that nothing gets done, or so calm because I'm just not thinking of anything. It sucks because I feel like one of my classes is partially to blame for my condition, and now my condition is making my studying almost useless because I can't retain nearly any of it. Soooooooo desenfocado!!!!!!!!! Anyway, I don't want to worry the world too much with my problems, just know that I am definitely not feeling myself, and hoping to feel as such soon, because this SUCKS.

But I know that I will feel better, as much as I don't FEEL that I will feel better, I know that it will happen. Many people in my life assure me of that, and so I know it will come to pass.

So I'd like to thank anyone and everyone who has done something to try and make me feel better. Honorable mentions are Dad, Mom, Darlene, Sarah, Tricia, Thomas, Alan, Kevin, Karli and many more. Some of you might not even read this but, when I get through this it will be because of you guys, so thank you.